To the person who is literally me in a different font, my sleepless twin

Kaly,

I hope you realise just how much you truly mean to people. Without you, my life would be miserable. If I'm being honest, you are probably the person I'm closest to, besides Niki, out of the entirety of my friends. For that, we have a friendship that I will never grow tired of. Thank you for being someone I can be myself around, and for always being such a comforting presence that I can turn to in times of laughter or support. Conversations with you are always one of my favourite things. It distracts me from the hideous things occurring in my mind, even if only for a moment.

You are one of the easiest people for me to speak to, and I am thankful. I've always found it difficult talking to people, especially due to my social anxiety, and overwhelming senses of guilt for things that haven't even happened yet. I don't have the best of luck with friendship. I always grow distant from my friends, or they end up leaving me with little to no explanation as to why. However, with you, I can tell things are different. I am so grateful for the day you asked to join my server, and I'll forever treasure the memories we've made, all of which started 23rd of April, 2024.

You remind me of the moonlight. You illuminate a dark night, even if you yourself are at a breaking point. You never fail to shine, and I admire you for that. But don't forget to take care of yourself. It's okay to let the light dimmer. You don't need to always be an outlet for others. Take some time for yourself too, before your light completely burns out.

You also remind me of the soft downpour of rain, something I find so much comfort and serenity in. To me, the showers of rain are a way I can momentarily forget about my worries. There's a sense of beauty in rain, and the ambience when it does, is something I will never get over. You never fail to make me feel comfortable, and to feel heard. With you, I know I matter.

You definitely do deserve the friends you have, and you deserve more than that too. You deserve far more love than you're receiving, because the amount you deserve is not humanely possible. I'm so proud of you, you're such a strong, creative person, and I admire you for all of your ideas, talents, creations, and your strength. Remember, you never have to face anything alone. I will always be by your side, even if it's only through a screen. However, I'm one message away. No matter the time, no matter the topic, you can always message me. You won't make me uncomfortable. I want to help you, bring you the peace of mind you deserve, even if it's only a slither of it. I may not reply straight away, if I'm a c t u a l l y sleeping for once, but I always get really happy when you come online, or when I wake up to see I received messages from you after I went to sleep. I reply to your messages almost immediately, before a lot of others. You as a person, and our friendship, holds a special place in my heart. You're very important to me. I love you, and care about you so much. I'm so proud of you for being so strong and amazing.

Thank you for the unforgettable nights, when neither of us could sleep, with the incredible memories our friendship holds. Thank you for reigniting my spark, even if it is only a tiny glimmer of light. You've reminded me what it's like to live, and to have friends that aren't fake. You've reminded me that I deserve to be happy, and that I'm worth more than I believe. It will take more time to properly consider this, but the thought is there. Thank you for being my friend, despite all of the hardships we both face. It means a lot to me that we became friends, and that you've continued to be my friend despite my insecurities and my issues. You know, we share so much more in common than we realise. We are two individuals who are so different, yet we hold onto this connection, with so many similarities between us, that many people would agree when we call ourselves the same person, different fonts. I love how we not only have positive similarities, but negative ones too. It's not in the sense that I love how you're suffering, because that is in no way what I mean. I wish you didn't have these similarities, and that your life was easier, filled with more peace and happiness. However, it brings comfort to me, knowing we share some issues, since it means we understand each other at a stronger, deeper level.

Thank you for putting up with me, and I'm so honoured to call you my friend. Now, try not to stay up too late tonight, alright? Don't forget to take care of yourself. Also, don't forget to put yourself first sometimes, it's necessary. Sometimes it's important to be 'selfish'. Focus on your health and wellbeing above all else <33

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